I reached for the No Pain with steady hands and...
I reached for the No Pain with
steady hands and screwed the lid offI put the little tissue square on my tongue, let it dissolveI wasn't in any pain this time
“Tell me something, DocWhat's your real name?”
I wanted to answer all the little puzzles before the end
Doc sniffed and wiped the back of his hand under his eyesIt's a family name, and my parents were cruel people“Jared's waiting, back by the big caveI promised him you'd tell
him when it was overJust wait until I–until I… stop moving, okay? It will be too late for him
to do gucci silver bag anything about my decision then
“I don't want to do this, WandaBut I'm holding you to your promiseYou gave me your wordI did my part, didn't I?”
“You didLet me stay with Walt and Wes
His thin face worked as he tried to keep back a sob
“Will you be… in pain?”
“No, Doc,” I lied“I won't feel anything
I waited for the euphoria to come, for the No Pain to set everything glowing the way it had the
last timeI still didn't feel any difference
It must not have been the No Pain after all–it had just been being loved
I stretched out on the cot, omega knockoff watch on my stomach, and turned my face toward himI heard him shake it onto the cloth in his hand
“You are the noblest, purest creature I've ever metThe universe will be a darker place without
you,” he whispered
These were his words over my grave, my epitaph, and I was glad that I got to hear themI will never forget you
Bye,we thought together
Doc's hand pressed the cloth gently over my faceI breathed in deeply, ignoring the thick,
uncomfortable scentAs I took another breath, I saw the three stars againThey were not calling
to me; they were tiffany heart drop earrings letting me go, leaving me to the black universe I had wandered for so many
lifetimesI drifted into the black, and it got brighter and brighterIt wasn't black at all–it was
blueWarm, vibrant, brilliant blue… I floated into it with no fear at all
CHAPTER 59
Remembered
The beginning would feel like the end
But this time the end was a greater surprise than it had ever beenGreater than any end I'd
remembered in nine livesGreater than jumping down an elevator shaftI had expected no more
memories, no more thoughtsWhat end was this?
The replica mulberry roxanne handbags sun is setting–the colors are all rosy, and they make me think of my friend… what would
her name be here? Something about… ruffles? Ruffles and more rufflesShe was a beautiful
FlowerThe flowers here are so lifeless and boringThey smell wonderful, thoughSmells are
the best part of this placeHas Cloud Spinner followed me again? I don't need a jacketIt's warm
here–finally!–and I want to feel the air on my skinMaybe she'll think I can't
hear and she'll go homeShe is so careful with me, but I'm almost grown nowShe can't mother
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